HEALING
It is my wounds. It is my wounds. I am responsible to look into them. Before I do, before I understand them, accept them – other people will open them, again and again. Forcing me to feel the deep pain of them, again and again.

When I am living from my head, it is almost like I am looking for someone who is really skilled in opening up my wounds, even putting some extra salt into them. It is like I am waiting for someone to betray me so that the part of me whispering – ”You cannot trust others” – can be right. Because, weirdly enough, to my mind, it seems like it is more important to be right than to heal, than to fully enjoy life.

However, I do have a choice to leave the head to instead enter my body, and from there starting a healing process. From there finding the trust I need to dare digging deeper. From there trying to understand myself and my wounds. From there taking responsibility and realising that it is my wounds and it is up to me to heal them. It is not everybody else’s fault that I am constantly getting hurt by the same situations over and over and over again.

Right now, I am feeling scared but also ready to fully jump into the place of trust again. Staying present. Letting go of what has happened before, allowing people to walk into my life. All the way. Into my heart. Into my soul.

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Sometimes, I do feel more at home with trees than humans but those rare moment of meeting a pair of eyes shining from the soul straight into mine are better than anything else. ❤ From the deepest part of my heart, thank you baravara for these blissful, silent, crazy, tough, funny, raw, painful & above all REAL 1,5 years together. I will never ever forget.

40 people in silence together for 40 hours. Each retreat, I am realising the lack of silence in today’s society, how we are so used to noice, to instagram updates, to having a podcasts in our ears, to constantly chatting with each other… that we have almost forgot the beauty of letting go of words and phones to just arrive inside.
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My experience, after all these retreats with Yogiakademin, is that we all have a deep longing to meet ourselves and others in a more real way BUT since we are so use to the noice it is scary at first to turn everything off so we need some discipline and the help of a group.
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When we manage to stick with the silence for a while, we are most probably remembering how heeling it is and how much a part of us always longs for it.
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The quality of the silence is something we can always trust. Something that constantly is guiding us back to ourselves, to our true beings. I know it is difficult, cause this thing in my hand is sooo crazy addictive, but let’s try to prioritise to turn of the phone and just be with ourselves in SILENCE some moments everyday.